hate miie hate eu hate us hate we

long rest

2006-04-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

lol.hmm.its been pretty long since i made my last post here.
candace said she one nyte stand with mr ang and im their child.
wad fuck.lol.nvm she have lousy taste too.of all guys,mr ang.
guess dats mummy`s taste.nvm.todays coach bdae.lol.yeah happy bdae.hope you get jing roo soon.haar.lazy to post lerh.hmm.my skin damn long lerh.mayb i shuld change?too lazy.haar.

my bloody valentine

2006-02-06T00:20:00.000-08:00

hai.i know.
this is gna be a fucking valentine.
no date no nothing no shit.
hai hai hai.
i know i know i know.
no need to sympathise.
ill celebrate with my fucking textbooks.
yes im gna habb a fucking good tyme.

wait,
i just remb I....HAVE 15 dars.
cant be all busy ryte.
maybe i dont habb to celebrate with my textbooks.

aiya,c first larh.

EDISON!!!!!!!
i forgot bout eu.
sry sry dar.i know eull plan surprises fer miie.
darI LOVE EU!!!!(=

suck.

2006-01-27T07:36:00.001-08:00

waah.i just hack into my sis e friendster profile.hehees no larh cause she neber sign out denn off com lerh.she so little fren xia.hmm waah lyn i hope it rly RLY RLY happens soon.den i and eu sibei sibei high[x2] liaos xia.wakaka.hmm dont feel lyke typing anymore.tata.

oh yea,i met jiayi today.chiobu nia.typical chij derh gerr.nowonder ian lyke her, yeah.

suck.

2006-01-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

was here

2006-01-20T00:28:00.000-08:00

was here.
now i hate writing posts.
cause i think its fucking boring and no one will read it.
so, i wont be posting often.

tata.

sad

2006-01-13T05:37:00.000-08:00

hai hai hai.
ive got nothing tu write.
life so boring
hai i no life.dat tyme tcher say e no life story i agree.

sch sucks

2006-01-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

sch sucks man.
DAMN FUCKING LOT XIA.
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
I NEVER NEED TO GO TO SCH!!!!!!!!!
haa.nice wish.
haiyo today junbin go sch i nv go)=.
mayb some other tyme he will come agn bahh.
hai.sch so boring no dem hor.

boring

2005-12-25T22:50:00.000-08:00

hai.so boring.sch gonna reopen liaos.
mum went fucking crazy AGAIN.
i dont care lerh larh.hai.
gna meet dace lerh.at j8.
dont know if denise wann meet us.
her burfdae today lehh.
HAPPY BURFDAE DENISE.

anybody wanna come along?

christmas

2005-12-25T01:30:00.000-08:00

christmas.
holy jesus.
i love eu.

BUT MOST OF ALL,

i love chen guan xi.

oh yea,

i love rachael too.

(=.

oh rach,thanks for your note.
i know it was mailed with love frm aus.
im sry if eu thot i forgot bout eu.
but i dint actually.
i wrote four letters to eu but i dint mail.=x.
i hope eu read dis.
sry rach,

money

2005-12-18T21:43:00.000-08:00

INEEDMONEY.
INEEDMONEY.
INEEDMONEY.

ILUBBCHENGUANXI.
ILOVECHENGUANXI.
ILOVECHENGUANXI.

lol

2005-11-28T19:41:00.000-08:00

long tyme no post lerh.
hehees.lazy tuu type larhh
and change skin
i got post .dont feel lyke typing anymore

<3 rachael.mwahh

dots

2005-11-01T16:58:00.000-08:00

eu thot eu knew everything
eu thot he loved eu
eu thot eu were blessed
eu thot eu were the greatest

butFUCKING SHIT,

eu werent

AT ALL.

the truth was,

eu knew nothing
he dint love eu
eu sucked at everything
and eu were hated by everyone.

i suggest,

YOU wake up and get a life.

hmm

2005-10-29T13:31:00.000-07:00

fine i shall post.
hmm.habben talked to weian for a long tyme.
but we just did.haa.
lucky i passed.neber drop to na.hai.
hai.dace did an airbrush.
i wanna do it too.
im gonna do it.soon
and im gonna get more piercings.

post

2005-10-26T06:04:00.000-07:00

hate

2005-10-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

i thot dis holiday would be much better than any.
but now i know it'd gonna sucked alot more.

cant you all see i hate there?
i hate e place,e ppl.
i hate it.

CANT YOU ALL SEE THERE'S ALOT OF HATE INSIDE ME? STAY AWAY FRM ME IF YOU CAN.

blank.

2005-09-18T11:22:00.000-07:00

i was here.and i changed my skinn.

helena

2005-09-14T17:10:00.000-07:00

so long, and goodnite.

fuck

2005-09-09T16:02:00.000-07:00

mann!i cant believe it.im grounded.its a friday and im grounded.dace emm yuming ky dey all at sentosa now i think and i m here,stuck at home!ITS A FRIDAY EU KNOW!!!!!!!!!arrgh.fufufufufufufufufufufufu im so pissed.
3 more weeks.3more weeks.21 more days.denn im free.but scared too.gonna c if im dropping to na lerhh.haii.
lots of thing to say.but i dont know if i should say.hai.
wed bbq was pretty ok.ppl lyyke my chicken wings!!!yahh!=)hahas.
hai.fuck mann.yesdae b gerrs wen for friendly at shuqun.SHUQUN lehh.man.fuck!i wanna go so badly de.thanks alort to my leg.my fucking leg.fu man.and i wann go watch.thanks to dat bitch hu dont let miie go.haa.there was alort of violence in my house yesdae.wadeva mann.dont care.dec holi i swear to go.wahaha.
starting to miss training abit.hai.yesdae dey play so well i nort dere.lucky jiao lian happy this tyme.hai.finally we sound lyyke a team agian.nort losers.aiya,i wasnt dere anw.howta feel?
I MISS RACHAEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hai.eu still remb us?we really still miss eu alort eu noe.

hmmsh.this is e first tyme since dunno how long i've written so long.~oh wells.take everybody!ESPECIALLY THOSE HU BOTHERED TO READ MY BLOG.hehees.thanks!

=)ohh ya.changed my skinn.

fuck

2005-09-03T20:34:00.000-07:00

i am shellshot.
when i saw.
y dint i notice earlier.
y dint i suspect.
forget it.
it dont mean much anymore.
i guess nothing means much too me anymore.

dots.

2005-09-02T22:26:00.001-07:00

muahahas.believe im in schh watching e movie marathon and im now in e home econs room typing now?hahas.im smart.
denise: uhhhu,she sure is,lookin spasticly CUTE with her specs on. COOK the mushrooms, :D
hahas.spaz.well,just now wen cheers wibb shar ky gary kelvin hm dace denise.we climbed thru e gate.hahas.miie and kelvin leg cant climb but in the end we did.lame.and we created some noise.wadeva larhh.miie and denise damn pissed niia.hmmsh.gonna go cook lerhh.cya

dots.

2005-09-02T22:26:00.000-07:00

mingg tiann jiann`

2005-08-28T11:40:00.000-07:00

yu xia le you ting le
lei liu le you gan le
ni zhou duo jiu duo yuan le
wo hai zai ze
ni shuo de ni wang le
ke shi wo hai ji de
yi bu shu yu wo de qin re
*ai zhen hui shu gae le shi jian
wo de er bian zai ting bu jian
wo yi wei yong yuan bu hui bian
jui xi guan de ming tian jian~
fang shou le gai hui dao chong qian
xin huae shou shang ye neng fu yuan
wo hui xue ze zhi ji zhou chu zhong qian
zhu fu ming tian~

siann

2005-08-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

haiish.everyday damn siann lehh.lousy day every day.
monday i found out my height and weight,which was terrible.
tuesday i played hide and seek with my mother aorund sing and she ended up meeting the principal.
wednesday me and candace were told dat we were banned from going to watch e bball finals and had to do dc.i was late and had to run tenn rounds with ruyi.aft school we went for friendly at xinn minn which sucked alot!coach said if he could he wanted to give us a slap each
thursday get back chi paper and was very angry at myself.never gotten so low before.and i dint study for e paper.in e end i got to go for e match but dace dint.denn wen cut hair and it sucks!denn in e nite had minor op on my leg.cause dere was this thing called e viral wart or wadeva.dunnch noe e spelling larhh.good larhh.ltr i cant go for training.dunn habb to do pt.hahas.sianns i cant walk around!doc said alort of stuff dat i had to do,including not walking around too much.haiish.cant go shopping le.cant dance.aiya,idk larhh.sunday or monday still habb to go back for another round.hope ok le by denn.

dots

2005-08-23T21:11:00.000-07:00

man.life is so boring lehh.nothing to do.nothing that interests me.other than volleyball.nothing le lorhh.other than kute or shuai guys.nothing le.haiish free period again.at library wibb dace.lim jiao sitting beside miie lehh.hahas.jealous.no larhh.a few seats away.dace says i type lyyke a baby.dots.hahas.kute wadd.hahas.gotta practise dance le.

bored

2005-08-20T12:25:00.000-07:00

mann.so much for being grounded.no going out of anywhere,other denn schh and vball trainings.for how long?four plus mths.FOUR PLUS MONTHS!!!!!i bet if it were eu eu would die.well, i habben yet, but gonna soon.haiish.they're really depriving miie of my freedom and life.

bored

2005-07-19T18:45:00.000-07:00

heyy.post.nothing to do.post.sian.life is so boring.post.i miss you.post.no no.post.i hate you.ya post.i love my mother.post.which is candace.post.wahahas.post.wadeva.post.kae larrh.post.ru yi too.post.gonna bathe.post.nothing to do.post.yahh.post.this friday recess one hour.post.eu not online.post.haiish.post.forgot wad i wanted to type.post.nebermind.post.gtg.post.love miie kae.post.i need love.post.hahas.post.

2005-07-15T09:41:00.001-07:00

damn.i am pissed.in fact.very.dat fuckingg bitch.nebermind.i wont gibb a damn.I'LL WAIT.

2005-07-15T09:41:00.000-07:00

damn.i am pissed.in fact.very.dat fuckingg bitch.nebermind.i wont gibb a damn.I'LL WAIT.

2005-07-14T11:50:00.000-07:00

loll.at library now.huimin sayy i lame.cus she very longg neber post her own blog liaos.loll.now free period sneak here.datt fat ass chasingg us back too class.shucks.dace dint cumm schh todayy.dunno ltr wann meet her.quite down.read somethingg.haiish.dunno wadd tu sayy.EU SUCK.

haiish

2005-07-09T20:13:00.000-07:00

haiish.everyday feels so boringg.dint go tu the stupidd walk-for-fun thinggy.siao.face the tchers for 12 days lehh hu will wann.dint even tell my mum.just forge larhh.wah lau.just read ru yi post.write till liddat.pissed lehh.habben wadd yet she go read till lyyke already happen lorhh.aiyahh wadrva nort my business ltr tio my again.go watch tv liao.gtg.

bliindd

2005-07-08T22:51:00.000-07:00

i hate the schh.for doingg this.
dunn wanna sayy.next time bahh.fuckingg hate the chi tcher.
she'll get it wen monday cums.
gtg.arrgh.my tagboard got prob.

fuck

2005-07-01T21:42:00.000-07:00

oh godd fuck i just wrote a post and it was deleted.good damn good.i am pissed.kae.i summarise eveythingg.talk to mrs tann.my mum went findd her yesdae.denn she wann findd miie.good.talk.she tried to be nice but i pissed her off.cus i told her i dint lyyke this schh.n iwas dao.n i threw cao binn look.she pissed.gibb miie 'probationn'.one mthh.wann c my A.P.change.if keep goingg worse she may expel miie.she wann miie go counsellingg.idunn wann.
i dunn care a fuckingg shit mann.think eu principal tokk tu miie i scared liaos arrh.knn.i dont give a shit shit to dis kae.i dont care if im gonna get expelled.i dont care if i drop to n.a.
seriously i dont know y i dont care.something damn wrong in side of miie.haiish.i just wanna rot away n die.i habb no feel to anythingg lorrh.i rarely am reali happy.i am hot-tempered,pissed,fierce all the time.especially training.

I AM WADD I DONT SEEM TO BE ON THE SURFACE.

dead.

2005-06-29T17:07:00.000-07:00

fuckk man.i dunnch noe wadds wrongg wibb my tagboard.i cant tagg at it.my com sucks.so i'll tagg frm here.
tu rachh:no no no man!im NORT angryy at eu!no no dunnch think wrongg.was just very pissed dat time.now ok lerrh.sorry sorry!x'(
tu dat passer-by:oh waddeva man.diish ish my blogg my rule.dont lyyke it get out of here kae.i dont gibb a damn man.i dont care hu eu are.i dont even wanna noe hu eu are.i dont care wadd eu write.eu dont even make miie angry.i dont know y.but neither do i bother tu findd out e reason y.

oh loll.im actually.im actually smiling man.haa.im sickk man.real sickk.haa.i am tired all e time.i stone away.i dont care a thingg.
i am sick.haa.

waddeva

2005-06-26T11:52:00.000-07:00

oh man.diish ish real good.yesdae rachh was online and nobody told.waah so good man.NOBODY.onli todayy i go read ru yi blogg denn findd out.waah so good lorrh.now i am pissed.c i get pissed so easily.waddeva larrh.i dont care.nobody bothers or cares bout miie anyway.i am rude selfish stingy bad hot-tempered idiotic fucked up act cool act kute fierce an arsehole...WADDEVA!

I AM RUDE SELFISH STINGY BAD HOT-TEMPERED IDIOTIC FUCKED UP ACT COOL ACT KUTE FIERCE AN ARSEHOLE

EVERYBODY STAY AWAY FROM ME!

wanted to apologise for my previous post,but now,oh well..forget it.

boohoo

2005-06-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

boohoo.yesdae's post was imcomplete.so dunn read it.loll.wadeva.
so pissed.rachh was online and we were lyyke conferencing alort of ppl n my sis barges in n i habb tu let her use the com.fuck eu.loser.i couldnt even get tu c rachh thru webcam.but she was kinda weird.ignore all of us liddat.wadeva larrh.i dont care.i am so pissed now.yesdae cried a damn lort in front of my mother.she was kinda shocked.haiish.think she thinks i broke up wibb my bf or so wadeva.i dont care!

seriously i feel somethingg is reali going weird inside miie.i get damn pissed and angry at anybody n everything.even my frens.if dey lyyke dont listen tu miie or ans miie,i get damn fuckingg pissed.wads going wrong wibb miie.alort of times, i get pissed at myself.thinks that i am hypocritical to everybody n dat y am i stil alive.i hate all my frens sumtimes.i dont gibb a damn to dem n dey can fuck off all dey wann if dey bu shuang miie too.aah!I AM DAMN FUCKINGG PISSED AT HER!!!!!DOES SHE NOE HOW MUCH I HATE HER?!if eu askk miie rite now,i can list out a whole lot of things on how much i hate her.man i cant stand it anylonger.c wads wrong wibb miie?she's my fren n i hate her so much.she hates miie too, i know.i know wad my frens i thinkingg de lorrh.dey think idk.but i know.n dey dont habb tu tell miie.idontcare!I HATE EVERYBODY AND EVERYTHING!!i have never felt happy before in my entire whole life ever since i stepped into andrson.except for SOME of e events in andvball camp'o5,nothing made miie habb a real smile.

I AM SO HYPOCRITICAL EVERYBODY!STAY AWAY FROM MIIE!I WILL BACKSTAB EU!I HATE EU ALL TO THE CORE!!FUCK OFF!DONT COME NEAR MIIE!I HATE YOU ALL I HATE YOU ALL!JUST STAY AWAY FROM MIIE!LET MIIE ROT N DIE AWAY!I AM SO FAKE CANT EU C?I AM SMILING EVEN THOU MY HEART IS DYING INSIDE!I AM SO FAKE I DONT EVEN KNOW WAD I WANT!THE HATRED IN MY HEART WEIGHS 1000%!ARRGH!I AM SO ANGRY!I AM SLAMMING E KEYBOARD RITE NOW!

yet i love you all sometimes too.

I AM UNDER DEPRESSION.

waddeva

2005-06-25T11:52:00.000-07:00

rachh

2005-06-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

hmmsh.i cant tagg my own blogg.nebermind i'll do it here.hahas rachh online tokingg tu us now!yaYy.so hapPy.ooooohhhhhh mmannnnnnn!hahas
cool man.oOps sorry charr forgot tu put ya name.hahas.but eu slept denn wake up!!!loll.wahahas.ish huidan lorrh.hahas.stupid bitch sister wann use denn take i cannot.arsehole.go die alrrh larrh all of your.fuckingg family.rachh we miishh eu.

boohoo

2005-06-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

boohoo~.todayy hadd trainingg.man,e band hadd deir prac at netball court.it was so FARNY.loll.waddeva.
boohoo.can i sayy we hate diish training?
cus its rachh last trainingg
luBb it?
cus we get tu habb rachh for last trainingg.
Dear God,
i pray that time will come to a standstill,
so that we will have more time to treasure each other
and that we will not regret when the time comes.
we wish that tomorrow will never come,
so that rachael can never that into that airplane.
all the trainings,ow we wish rachael could be there.
her voice, her smile, her laughter, her princess style,
was all that we had till today.
those soccer matches, movie marathons, friendly matches,
it's all not over yet.
everybody's wishing the same thing,:
oh god,could you turn back time or give a miracle?
we still cant bear rachael to go.
we know it's almost impossible,
but yet, we wish, we wish.......

we wish..

we wish..
-amen.

whee

2005-06-18T16:03:00.000-07:00

whee~!just got back frm camp!
camp rocks man.damn leisure niia.bet no one hadd lyyke diish type of camp before.tell ya all of wad we did:
first dayy~:
9.00am-assemble at temp block cus we gonna slpp dere.so shiok man aiircon all tyme!
-take 74 tu fairfield for frendly.longg ride shiok arrh can slpp n enjoy aircon.but ltr e rest felt cold.cus raining at dat tme too.
-reach derre at around eleven plus.playy five sets till 1.45.win two lost three.dint really play well.
-wen tu deir oppo market for lunch.evy'body ate chicken rice.mr lim was pissed cus we keep screaming cus e birds keep flying above us!
-took 74+265 back tu skool.hadd 'trainingg'.hadd diish 3-on-3 competiton.hadd lyyke ten teams.eventual winner datt team got fifty bucks which coach had laid bet on.of course coach team won larrh.
-eveningg:dan&char wen dan hse bathe n ate mac.ruyi jiahui&rach went hme.miie sm joce&yx 'da pao'food frm oppo den wen yx hse bathe+eat.e boiis +sec one gerrs bathe at sch.assemble at eight plus.shiok rite!onli our camp we can go out bathe.
-hadd talentime cum karaoke session.coach n e t'chers sang alort.we got singg too.boiis onli jh.hahas.laugh lyyke hell so farny.coach gave rach a jacket cus...woah he forgot cut price tag den e price was lyyke 130 bucks.
-aft dat was movie marathon.watch madacasgar.halfway eat cup noodles.took photos.boiis summ wen gamblingg.think coach earn lyyke 100 over.cus boiis each lost lyk 2-digit no.s each.haa.aft dat we brought everything back tu our room den continue watching.the pacifier.niice man!denn boiis cum our room gamble cus caoch wann slpp.wah lao.was damn pissed.couldnt watch cus deyy damn noisy lorh.arsehole.aft dat deyy wen off we watch i do i do.damn lame xia.den play cards.andvballers best nort onli n vb but oso playy cards.playyed lyyke hell.miie rach n dan were sole survivors of e movie marathon cus rest all slpp liaos.i slept at 4.30am.
-7.15am.wake up!fuck man so early we were lyyke half dead.finally we got up brush teeth prepare.
-9 plus.bus came tu send us tu sentosa.coach dint go cus he niid go report for army.man we slept in bus.so fast reach lorh.den we playy beach vb.miie n ru yi wen suntann.den ltr dan jiahui joce yx join us.den got diish group of nort-bad looking boiis 'kan shang' joce den pretend flirt.lucky ah-gong neber c.soon aft he came.den e boiis faces were so farny.hahas.denn we went kayaking!so fun.we all dint noe how to at first.keep crashing into each other.was so fun!aft dat e burger king food came den we eat.suppose to habb beach frisbee n soccer but we too tired so went off earlier.reach sch liao mr lim say c us so tired n let us rest till 5.30 den assemble.
-5.30pm:barbecue!coach was back.waah man keep helping to bbq e food could hardly eat.coach superb at satay man.so niice to eat!aft dat finish we had badminton game+table tennis.badminton was two books+one shuttlecork+one open area.table tennis was two row of table+2 bats+ping pong ball.den no one wanted to clean up e bbq.mr lim was angry.
-8 tu 9 plus:gerrs went wash up.miie n rach went last.coach went amk central borrow horror movie shutter.miie&rach dint wann watch so we went wash up last.boiis went watch too.dey go off all lights n on full volume summore.we went pei sec1 boiis play cards.we were lyyke one corridor away frm dem n we could hear deir screams damn loud.lyyke sitting roller coaster liddat.aft dat deyy all veri scared larh,c larh.wann watch so much.miie sm n rach were damn pissed at e rest lorh.damn k.wah lau.so scared den stil wann watch in e first place.
-eleven tu twelve plus:we continue movie marathon.watch 13 going on 30.quite niice larrh.play cards n watch.ate cup noodles too.den gerrs all slpp liaos.left miie n rach still awake.den aft watch finish movie miie n rach play daidee.2 ppl play onli lehh.so exicting.denn we go brush teeth AGAIN.ONLI MIIE N RACH WERE SOLE SURVIVORS OF MOVIE MARATHON,DAIDEE PPL & BRUSHNG TEETH FOR 2 NIITES.even guys slpp liao lorh.so cool.slept at nearly four.
-7.30am.wake up!wah lau.all of us half dead.clean up of areas denn debrief.bois hadd frenli den we go c.bball bois hadd traning too.aft dat rain so we went oppo den go back temp blocks so shuang on aircon for two consecuetive nites w/o off-ing it even wen we went out.gerrs played 'badminton finals' while boiis gamble again.play cards n slpt too.
-2pm.went oppo for lunch.coach was veri angry.dey sayy.we hadd 'training' suppose tu habb frenli wibb ande alumni ppl but dey dint turn up in e end.haiish.so we played sets in e end.dunno y miie mood went DOWN for a change.guess i wass angry at myself.thot alort of stuff.cry a little teeny weeny bit.gues damn down bahh.suddenly miie n rach wanted to watch movie marathon.but of cus couldnt.den we played soccer wibb e guys.hahas.den aft we went amk central sports cafe eat.so malu.we carry so many things den ppl were lyykew staring at us.eat till nearly nine thou.den we all went back hme.

~PHEW WADD A LONGG POST!!!but i hadd a good tyme writing it.bring back memories.rach,we luBb eu FOREVA.

whee

2005-06-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

whee~!

sians

2005-06-10T04:08:00.000-07:00

`iish a person feelingg depressed:
wenn she's happy outsiide but felingg down inside?

wenn she's feels empty all e tiime?

wenn she feels datt she has nobodyy hu cares for her even thou she has many frens all around?

wenn her temper iish badd all e tiime?

wenn she feels lyyke endingg herr liife couldnt change a thingg?

wenn she feels bare inside?

wenn she feels souless empty all e tiime?

wenn she stones away all e tiime,into empty space?

CAN SUMBODY GIBB MIIE AN ANSWER???
sumbody,pls?

empty

2005-05-22T14:36:00.000-07:00

everydayy is a |ousyy dayy.

i just fee| it.='(

dead.

2005-05-19T11:53:00.000-07:00

i fee| veri dead lehh.

yYy

whY do i fee| so emPty a|l the time?

can someone

tell me what's the feeling like of being loved.

For i dont know.

someone tell me,please.

hate

2005-05-15T16:19:00.000-07:00

all was a lie.

just a stupid lame lie.

you said you would never leave me.

you said you would never abandon me in this cold, bloody world.

you said you would love me.

you said you would protect me.

but in the end,

i'm still alone.

you n your broken promises,take them away with you.
don't leave them here.

i don't need them.

lazy

2005-05-04T03:11:00.000-07:00

aah.damn tired xia.loll.he so damn kute.wahaha.
oOps.HE just came online too.
whee~.damn tired.
haiish.think its gonna cumm.
e torture.haiish.wen it cumms.
it all shows.i just noe it.=(

hate miie. hate eu. hate us. hate we.

i just hate everythingg.
life sucks.

lazy

2005-05-04T03:10:00.000-07:00

2005-04-27T05:48:00.000-07:00

im sorry i had tu be lyyke diish.
im sorry i made eu cryy.
im sorry i couldnt be wad eu wanted miie tu be.
im sorry it had tu turn out diish wayy.
im sorry i couldnt be perfect.
im sorry i had tu hate eu.

im sorry.all was tu pity eu.

im sick of dis world.diish cold hard bloody world.
im angry at diish world.
pissed at diish world.
hate diish world.
tired of diish world.
y?
cus it was eu all hu made it diish wayy.

WE ARE A|| REJEC+S Of +HE SOCiE+Y.

hate

2005-04-27T03:46:00.000-07:00

i just so fuckingg hate her.
damn fuckingg bitch.arrgh.
knnbccb.
reallY giBb up.
wont take it anyymore.
one dayy,im just gonna leave this place.
this hell.

tuu her:knnbccb larrh eu
lyyke i so easyy bully arc.knnbccb.
lyyke i usingg her for ****** liddat lehh.
wah lau.arrgh.kpbkb larrh.

haiish.reali damn fucked up nowadays.
n im stil actingg so nice all e tme.
fuck larrh.even my com oso liddat.

Y ISH EVERYTHINGG & EVERYBODY GOINGG AGAINST MIIE??

JUST FUCK OFF;I CANT TAKE IT ANYYMORE!!!

haiish

2005-04-24T14:44:00.000-07:00

what a fucked up dayy.
what a fucked up week.
what a fucked up time.
what a fucked up cheat.

what a fucked up fee|ing im havingg now.

i think eu dunnch lyyke miie anyymore.
just ditch miie.gett over wibb it.
ok.im crappingg.

i wanna gibb up.i cant take it anyymore.
eu are just so fuckingg irritaTing.i dont gibb a damn anyymore.i so sick of all counsellingg n talks.sick of everythingg.sick of eu.

does it hurt if i askk eu to fuck off n gibb up on miie?
tuu walk away n pretend eu neber knew miie?
tuu ignore miie n le+ miie rot away?
i cant be e perfect gerr eu wann.
for once,for all, eu neber knew miie.

im sorry.

bored

2005-04-13T06:13:00.000-07:00

haiish.sung eh todayy.no lesson.no nutin.onli watch video n playy.sung eh!
haiish.he todayy neber cumm skool.sians.
den he tell miie got three months left.
cha tio lorrh.reali mehh.den..haiish.nebermind.
c larrh.haiish.reali worry for eu lortts.
but i oso cant do a thingg nehh.just worry reali lorrt for eu nehh.

basketballer 15 n pwiness 18:knnbccb larrh.act duai pai.is if eu all damn bigg niia.oso still in sec skool lorrh.scold miie chi bai.wah lau.act kute larrh.sayy eu lurrve your stead alortt.all e act kute stuff.eeeer..now i oso angry liaos.nebermind not worth it.FUCK OFF,LOSERS!!!haha.

monday.

2005-04-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

writing human lang now.
hahas.hmmsh.dat lim neber cum today.cant gett back fone.
SALLY LEE ISH A DEAD FISH WIBB A GOOSE BUTT!!!!!!!
hahas.niice?got originality lehh.i invent goose butt de.
hahas.dunnch sayy her lerrh.
hmmsh.todayy trainingg denn rain.
haiish.but sft trainingg go findd hiim.
stupidd.shou inside.shou mahh fann.hahas.
den baby shark dunnch lyyke.
den go dere everybody neber wear shirt.
show ang-gong mahh.hahas.shou flat.six-pack niia.hahas.jk.
his ang-gong shou small.hahas.jk.hmmsh.dat keow damn weird.he n cai quan flirting wibb shark n datt belinda gerr.den cq lyyke drug-addict liddat.eat E.hahas.shant tokk more lerrh.
miie |urrve jaY!!!!
lolls.jk larrh.but i reali lyyke him.okiesh
miie +0 [iCe]: f o r e v e r? hope shou bahh.

patch

2005-04-09T20:44:00.000-07:00

patched.
but thinggs dunnch feel e same.
i dunnch noe if im goingg ok.
or if im doingg e rite tingg.of getting myself hurt agaiin.
i dunnch wanna gett ditched anyymore.
i thiink it's its gonna be over soon.
dat's wad i thiink.
until sumthingg's showingg miie it's better,
i noe i reali lurrved him.

I JUST FUCKING HATE HER.HATE HER FUCKING DAMN LORT.
SHE THINK SHE SHOU GOOD.SHE THINK SHE SHOU CHIIO.
TRUTH ISH,WADEVA SHE THINK SHE ISH GOOD IN,SHE ISH NORT.
SO DAMN NORT.
I JUST FUCKING HATE HER.HATE HER FUCKING DAMN LORT.
ONE DAYY,I'M GONNA ASKK EU TU FUCKING GET LOST.
SOON.

miixed feelings

2005-04-02T14:44:00.000-08:00

your smile ..ish so plastic tu miie.

haiish.yy did eu have tu get into dat fight.
i noe eu started it.
c larrhs.eu got yourself injured.
n im worried for eu.but i cant do a thingg.
can onlii watch as she did all for eu.n eu all together.
i noe.eu toked tu miie.but i dint bother to reply.dint feel lyyke it.thiink eu're pissed.
thiink eu stop lyyking miie soon.
haiish.wish i was her.wish i could be dere for eu.help eu ease your pain.but no.i was just dreamingg.
tell miie wad i should do.
thiink positvely.or negatively.
continue lurrving eu.or stop lurrving eu.

wiished i had suspension at dat time.den can c eu.wahahas.but its to late.

maybe i lurrved eu too much.
thats y i had to let eu go.

maybe eu lurrved miie wibb too much doubt.
thats y eu had to let miie go.

but wadeva it was, its all over now.

the hardest thingg i'll ever have to do..
turn around and walk away
pretending i don't lurrve eu.

hurt

2005-03-28T22:20:00.000-08:00

yy did it turn out tuu be diis way

thiings will neber be e same again.

eu lurrved miie but eu dont noe hu i am.
just let miie go.

cuz we are all to blame.
we've gone to far
from pride to shame.
we're trying so hard.
dying in vain.

we're hopeless..

we will fall..

everyone. wanting. all.

fear

2005-03-24T23:43:00.000-08:00

i fear losingg all dose ppl datt i lurrve;

i fear losingg all the thinggs that of within reach;

i fear losingg hiim;

i fear losingg my senses;

i fear losingg my freedom;

i fear dem comingg;

i fear; i fear losingg iit all.

wake miie up;till my senses regaiin life.

iit was myy grave miistake tuu have ever lyyked euu.

2nd post

2005-03-22T17:01:00.001-08:00

im shou cheap?
well thiink agaiin.
cuz if eu thiink im a fool enuff tuu playy wiibb miie,well, thiink agaiin.cuz i'm gonna rreverse it diish tiime round.
i'm norrtt as good as eu thiink. i've got my own reputatiion.my own pride.
ain't gonna let eu take itit shou easilyy.

2nd post

2005-03-22T17:01:00.000-08:00

first post

2005-03-19T01:55:00.000-08:00

test.testiing.

2005-03-12T01:53:00.000-08:00

testing